I'm generally not a fear person ...I don't tend to be scared or worry. Long ago, 1st or 2nd kid in, realizing that worry is, indeed, like praying for what I don't want AND that the kids sense worry, leaving them to experience less safety and trust. I have great faith and walk with incredible confidence (thanks to many people, especially my parents). The "afraid" definition here is like the "fear" as in "God fearing" or a "Fear of God" like fear...it's BIG, this parenting thing, momentous even. The message "here" then is that this mothering / parenting thing, well...it's HUGE. It's HARD too. I'm torn, healed, beautifully scarred and marked as I walk in this BIG and beautiful journey of motherhood. If you're new to this journey or just considering it, know that to do "this" authentically and sincerely, the role you're accepting and committing to is to be respected and know too that you will be asked for more than you knew you had or thought you agreed to. You can't "get ready" for the whole journey. You can't know yet what you need to know next decade...it's not time yet. You can, however, trust you'll learn and you'll not walk alone.
"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body." ~Elizabeth Stone